Ghost
It lingers by my side,
Waiting, staring, smiling at me.
I don’t know what it wants, why it stays.
Why it tortures me so, just to be.
Morning to night I see his face,
Sleep in his arms and wake alongside him,
I wish the sheets were ruffled
But all I can feel is cold linen.
He was mine, some aeons ago
When I could feel his heartbeat on mine.
He became mine, the day we met
When we strayed through a bush and vine.
That day when the daffodils flew in the sky
Right in front of the orange cloud,
I built a house - for him, for me
“I’d love you forever,” in his ears, I had vowed.
I still walk past the vines and bushes
For what I had once kept for auld lang syne,
Has now become a friend, a curse
For me to carry along, for him, confined.
“I knew this wasn’t going to last forever,” he said
And I knew it was my fault.
Sunken the flower that shone, despite the gold
That dazzled all around, all feelings had a hault.
Craved for him, the solemn presence
Couldn’t believe reality, wanted to disappear
Into a world in my head,
Created his ghost who stayed with me
For an eternity of dread and tread.
I think I want it to go away
It has wiped my faith, all my love now.
I don’t think I can survive with this
Hollow piece of nothing, this vow.
But it smiles again, that lovely smile which made me
Fall to my knees, back in ‘fifteen.
Says I’ll stay here for
Three thousand years, no in between.
So I walk through the fields of October
Hand and hand with his ghost
Wandering when it would vanish
When it would rip my heart -
And let me lay in the autumn of the one I lost.
This is capitivating. Enjoyed it thoroughly Diti. Great work. Looking forward to see more blogs.
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