Phoenix

Running running running. Like a waterfall they keep running. The force isn’t much, but I can’t get them to stop. Not tonight.

Tonight. In my own vicinity, and only my own, let me bleed my eyes off. I have held them for too long. Made sure no one saw them, made sure no one came to know. Made sure no one figured how vulnerable I was inside. 

Outside, I kept a smile, bittersweet though, but a smile. And no one had a clue.

They would have had, if they noticed, however. If they saw the pain I went through, every time I tilted my lips upwards, fulfilling my role.

But here on the balcony, when none of my soldiers look, I finally tilt them downwards. 

I embrace the pain, think about each incident, each person, and each instant.

When I shall stop, I do not know. But until I’m not ready, I will be held here within. Bleeding, till I wither and get ready to rise.

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I wouldn't lie. I was very hesitant to share this, because this is very close to my heart. But, today I just felt very courageous and went for it.

I hope you enjoyed it💗

P.S. the blog I was talking about last month is still in my drafts. I will post it soon!

Stay strong, loves!